Welcome to my world
Today I am sitting at my desk in my self-created "Money Zone" (my special name for my office) in a sundress, a messy bun and barefoot. I am sporting these really great readers that I bought for the computer screen and a makeup-less face. My ring-embellished fingers flit across the keyboard of a sleek Mac computer.
The picture screams Bohemian, very relaxed and chilled-out woman. Which is accurate, and funny, seeing that I am a Bahamian woman (born in the Bahamas). Because of my island upbringing, I was conditioned to appear relaxed on the outside. We know how to "chill" (usually on the beach with sand between our toes, sipping on coconut water directly from the coconut shell that somebody climbed a coconut tree to retrieve lol)
Shortly, I'll be getting on a video conference call to PowHERup another woman whose Soul is pulling at her to show up in the Amazing, Potential and Purpose running through her heart and soul, and later I'll be teaching an online class.
The Universe gave me a life that, when I was in my twenties and thirties, I never dreamed was possible.
For the first thirty plus years of my life I suffered with the fear of rejection. I was uncomfortable with being seen, and just wanted to hold the spotlight for others to shine under.
Even though outwardly I appeared to be very comfortable in front of others, inwardly I always wondered and worried what they thought about me, and would be overtaken with anxiety and fear if I ever had to speak in front of more than 5 people.
I was on the road to remaining in the shadows of others, with a mindset limited by my willingness to be affected by C.R.A.P. (Constantly Reacting to Another Person).
How does a rejected, emotionally wounded woman become the woman I am today?